When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2
Usually, I'm pretty good at making artificial peace for myself, which isn't a good thing. I'm the type of person who likes to have everything under control so I try to create peace for myself by making lists making sure that everything goes along with MY plan for my life according to MY timing. As much as I try this over and over again, this will NEVER get me real peace, and I'm thankful for that! I'm thankful because the pressure is off of me to create the best life for myself and real peace isn't something I have to work for, it's given to me as a free gift when I seek Jesus! One simple step and you receive free, true, real, amazing, everything-could-go-wrong-and-I-would-still-praise-Jesus peace! Who wouldn't want that?!
Lately, everytime I talk (or argue..sometimes that happens too) with Jesus I feel him asking me the same question – Do you trust Me? Of course, the obvious answer is YES! But then I start to think about everything I want so desperately. A successful, stable future, a happy family, always being surrounded by the best friends, maybe a cute little dog or two, a normal life...but that's my problem. “Yes I trust You, but not with these things...” isn't trusting Jesus, it's trusting yourself and hoping it will turn out how you envisioned it (which isn't nearly as good as God's plans for your life, just saying).
Trusting God is a daily process. Daily. As in every. Single. Day. Everyday, you have to take up your cross. Everyday, you have to die to yourself. Everyday, you have to surrender everything you “want.” Everyday, you have to be open to what God's telling you and if He's asking you to something, do it! This seems like a lot to do, but the return you get from it – the return of peace, joy, and the promise of plans that will prosper you, give you hope, and a future (that's better than your plans) – is so much better than being momentarily uncomfortable or unsure.
And if you're still unsure about trusting Jesus, just remember everything He's already done for you. He died on the cross for you! He defeated death for you! He's already won this war...for you!
He is for you!