I feel like the word desperate has a negative connotation with it. But I think we could all use to be a little desperate. Not desperate for a boyfriend, or a girlfriend, or money, or whatever else, but desperate for Jesus. We may love Him, but we should yearn to love Him more. We need Him, but we should feel we need Him more. I want to be desperate for a desperate heart. When you think about it, people who are desperate for something constantly think about it; they live it, breathe it, love it, worry about it and then want more. I'm human so I know I'll never be able to give Jesus what He deserves and my brain is very uni-functional (may have just made that word up) and I get so caught up in things that don't matter but I wish I was always thinking about Jesus, living like Jesus, breathing in His word, loving Him, and even after all that I still want more. You just have to be desperate for the right things (or thing, should I say).
"As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God." Psalm 42:1
I want to get to where my desperation for God is imperative to my survival. I want to be in a constant state of longing for more of Him. I want to constantly be in prayer and communication with Him. I want the fire in my heart to just get bigger and bigger until it's spilling out. I want people to see Jesus in me and know that He's better than ANYTHING that this world has to offer. Basically, I want to need God more.
Man, I never knew having a blog would be so spiritually stimulating. I need to start posting in the morning because now I'm all excited and stuff and I have to read a boring book and go to sleep! But I'm going to pray real quick...right here....right now...here we goooooo:
Lord, thank you so much for everything you've given me. You've blessed me so much! I thank you for my family, friends, and You. Thank You for the freedom You give to each one of us, and thank you for the fact that we never run out of second chances. I pray that You'll never stop stirring and shaking me up. I never want to get to complacent and to the point where I think I have everything figured out on my own and I don't need you anymore. Because I'll always need You and I'll always love You. Just like You love me. Forever i'm Yours, and forever You're mine. I thank you for being constant and never changing. You are the one thing I can always count on. I pray that you constantly remind me to be desperate for You and that You're more important than school, a career, a boy or anything. You are my future and I trust You to take care of everything. I love you so much! Please help me read this book really fast! In Your Name, Amen.