Yesterday, I went to an AA meeting as part of an assignment for my Psychiatric nursing rotation. I’m not going to lie, I was extremely nervous, I’ve never been to anything like that before. But it was probably one of my favorite moments in nursing school. There was so much life change in these people, lots of happy endings, I was honored to even be able to sit in the room and listen to their stories.
But there was one lady who said one thing that just jumped out to me. She said, “If you’re uncomfortable, it’s because you’re not accepting something.”
She meant it as something different than the way I took it. But that’s a very powerful statement. For me, I think I also get uncomfortable, restless, when I’m not accepting something. Our souls know when we were made for more. (To partially quote Jennie Allen -- I'm reading "Restless" currently, too. God sure does like to speak in surround sound.) That’s when those uncomfortable feelings set in. It’s us not accepting the way our lives are now, it’s us not accepting the thoughts that “maybe this is all God had in store for me,” it’s us not accepting the fear and doubt and limitations that the world puts on us.
That we put on ourselves.
Because deep down within me, past the little girl who’s 6 months away from graduating college and is scared out of her mind because she has no idea what to do, is the woman who God called me to be who isn’t going to accept a life of normalcy. I don’t accept it. I can’t accept it. I’m so thankful God instilled this fear of reaching the end of my life and feeling like everything I did and everything I was was normal. When I get to Heaven, I want to be so out of breath and tired from chasing Jesus, and any plans He has for me, my whole life. And I’m not really sure what normal looks like, but I know that’s not it.
I’m going to choose the uncomfortable life. I’m not sure what all it entails yet, I think I know some parts of my future - well, I HOPE I know some parts – but one thing I’m certain of is that we all have “been sent on special assignment by Christ as part of God’s master plan” as Paul said in Colossians 1:1. Knowing that, and knowing Jesus - Immanuel, “God with us” - is WITH us, what’s keeping us in this normal life?!
“Therefore I, a prisoner for serving the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of your calling, for you have been called by God.” Ephesians 4:1
But there was one lady who said one thing that just jumped out to me. She said, “If you’re uncomfortable, it’s because you’re not accepting something.”
She meant it as something different than the way I took it. But that’s a very powerful statement. For me, I think I also get uncomfortable, restless, when I’m not accepting something. Our souls know when we were made for more. (To partially quote Jennie Allen -- I'm reading "Restless" currently, too. God sure does like to speak in surround sound.) That’s when those uncomfortable feelings set in. It’s us not accepting the way our lives are now, it’s us not accepting the thoughts that “maybe this is all God had in store for me,” it’s us not accepting the fear and doubt and limitations that the world puts on us.
That we put on ourselves.
Because deep down within me, past the little girl who’s 6 months away from graduating college and is scared out of her mind because she has no idea what to do, is the woman who God called me to be who isn’t going to accept a life of normalcy. I don’t accept it. I can’t accept it. I’m so thankful God instilled this fear of reaching the end of my life and feeling like everything I did and everything I was was normal. When I get to Heaven, I want to be so out of breath and tired from chasing Jesus, and any plans He has for me, my whole life. And I’m not really sure what normal looks like, but I know that’s not it.
I’m going to choose the uncomfortable life. I’m not sure what all it entails yet, I think I know some parts of my future - well, I HOPE I know some parts – but one thing I’m certain of is that we all have “been sent on special assignment by Christ as part of God’s master plan” as Paul said in Colossians 1:1. Knowing that, and knowing Jesus - Immanuel, “God with us” - is WITH us, what’s keeping us in this normal life?!
“Therefore I, a prisoner for serving the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of your calling, for you have been called by God.” Ephesians 4:1